Everyone is talking about check-in and how much fun it is
and I’m stuck in Maryland taking a math class until July 12th.
THIS. But instead of Maryland, it’s Texas! :(
So many emotions.
Hello everyone. I am not doing so great today. I think the pain and sadness of my break-up with Joe is finally setting in. I am a very strong person, so I know I will get through this, but I’m starting to realize its over. I wont have Joe there anymore to call or text or go out with, I wont have him to get me food or buy me little things that make me smile, and I wont have him as a friend anymore. I feel like I have no friends. I feel like when I got to college and we first started going out I made him my life. There was never a time when I was without him by my side, and when ever we’d go to parties, it was ALWAYS “Colleen-and-Joe”, like it was one word. I just filled my life with him and missed chances to make friends in college, and now I am paying the price. I feel so alone. :( Like I have people around me that say they are there for me, but I just don’t think any of them know what I am going through. After I spill my problems to them, and they give me some sympathy, they can just go on with their life and not have to worry about my problems, but I don’t have that luxury. I have to go back to my empty (AWFUL) apartment, and just sit there with no one to text and nothing to do.
I’m sorry if this just sounds like one big pity-party, but I spent 3 years and 8 months with Joe by my side, and now its all gone. All over. It’s a very VERY hard thing to have to realize. Even though I know I know it is all for the best (with me going to Disney and all), it’s still really hard.
And I am constantly wondering what his family and friends think of me. What if they think I am some monster that broke Joe’s heart? Or what if they think I am a bad person, just leaving him so I could run off to Disney World….? How horrible. I loved his family! They were amazing people, and they welcomed me on so many of their holidays and vacations with open arms. I hate to think I have hurt them too.
However, the only thing keeping my spirits up is Disney! I am so excited to go to the program in August (101 days!!!). I am extremely excited to meet my future roommate, Christina, and all the other girls! And not to mention all the wonderful people I have met through the DCP Facebook! I just have to keep all that in mind and I know I will get through this. But it is going to be very tough.
I’m sorry this isnt entirely Disney related. I hate to come on here and bring down everyones dashboard with my problems, I just have no where else to go to let out my feelings. :(
Hey
Hello everyone! I hope you are all having a magical day!
I just wanted to come on and vent a little. Yesterday was a very very hard day for me, and I think it will help me to talk about it…er…write about it.
Well after a lot of consideration, I decided to end it with my boyfriend of 3 years and 8 months. We had been having problems for about a year, but it was mostly little arguments and disagreements and things like that. We fought and got over it by the next day.
However, the breaking point was when he didn’t support me going to Disney. I have wanted to work for Disney since 7th grade (12 years old), and I am not going to just drop what I have wanted to do for 10 years cause some guy doesn’t want me to go.
When I first started talking about doing the program he was incredibly supportive! but as the application process went along, his tune began to change. He told me he would move to Florida if I got a full time job there, but then after a while he starting saying he didn’t want to leave Texas. That hurt. How were we going to makethat work??
Well, it all got much worse when he actually accused me of only wanting to go to Disney to “leave him”. He started taking the whole thing personally and was blaming me of tearing up the relationship. That was pretty much when I checked out. I was not going to sit around and have someone not take my dream, I have had for this long, seriously.
I am sorry if this makes me sound like a terrible person. I do feel bad because Joe is an AMAZING person with such a kind and giving heart, but he just was not supportive of what I really wanted to do. And some may say that my dreams are unrealistic, and so what if they are?? I still need someone there to support anything I want to do.
Thanks for letting me rant. What do you think? Did I do the right thing???
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Thomas Kinkade: May he RIP. I fell in love with his work. Cinderella, The Little Mermaid, The Lion King, and Peter Pan are my favorites.
These pictures are gorgeous. RIP :(
Best 8 Seconds of my life.
this again dkjfsd
I reblog this every time it appears from the depths of tumblr.
WHAT THE CHRIST JUST HAPPENED?!
BEST THING EVER
WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK.
Ohhhhhhh my jesus.
I reblogged this once, long ago….I still get notes that this is getting reblogged.
This is an automatic reblog whenever this appears.
I can’t help but laugh everyone I see this on tumblr
Best 8 Seconds of my life.
this again dkjfsd
I reblog this every time it appears from the depths of tumblr.
WHAT THE CHRIST JUST HAPPENED?!
BEST THING EVER
WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK.
Ohhhhhhh my jesus.
I reblogged this once, long ago….I still get notes that this is getting reblogged.
This is an automatic reblog whenever this appears.
I can’t help but laugh everyone I see this on tumblr
